Symptoms of Anxiety and Depression
These are signs that a person may suffer from both anxiety disorder and depression:
- Constant, irrational fear and worry
- Physical symptoms like rapid heartbeat, fatigue, headaches, hot flashes, sweating, abdominal pain, and difficulty breathing
- Changes in eating, either too much or too little
- A difficulty with memory, decision making, and concentration
- Constant feelings of sadness or worthlessness
- Loss of interest in hobbies and activities
- Feeling tired and cranky
- Inability to relax
- Panic attacks
I am not a psychologist or a life coach. I am just a random girl experiencing difficult times. Trying to understand myself, many times I get judged by people, how I am not positive, how according to them everything is ok.
There are times when I wake up with a feeling like a heavy stone is lying on my chest. I cry so much. I am aware of the situation and yes I am trying to get over like all people who suffer too. No one likes to feel this way. Understand that.
If you are like me, I don’t know your life or situations you are going through but I know the feeling of sadness that overwhelms you and you can’t control it.
I am not going to give any pieces of advice just my personal experience of how I am trying to help myself. I am totally aware of my feelings.
When I feel like crying I cry. When I feel I can’t concentrate on work, I watch some movie. I realized one harsh truth and that with this condition not many people like to stick around me, it makes it even harder for me. I wish I can talk more about it, sometimes it is just my mistake when someone asks me how I am I just say I am ok, although I am screaming for help inside. I guess I just do not like to bother them.
My already complicated relationship suffers a lot too. I do not want to lose certain people from my life, so here it is what I decided to do…
What I know is that in this condition it is hard to force yourself and be in the mood for activities that people mostly advise…And if you are more loner person like me and you love your own peace and room, then you are far from wanting to run out there and socialize.
Read my blog post about feeling stuck in life. It is about journaling, thinking about all aspects of your life and writing a breakdown, what is working what not, how you would like it to be, where you would like to be, what are the obstacles, what can you do about it. It is about writing your own goals, cut pictures from magazines and make a vision board, I am writing my tasks, and I track my progress each day.
I made my morning, afternoon, and evening routine…People say work hard and you will think less, maybe…but they have no idea that this is a feeling, a feeling that tries to stop you, that makes it hard to concentrate.
The most important thing for me was to identify and challenge negative beliefs.
Every day is a battle. When I need motivation I look for some books, for my journal reminding myself of my goals, I remember the event that made me laugh, I watch motivational videos on youtube. When I need to cry I just cry…I hug my huge stuffed donkey and I cry… I hug my dogs and I cry…I believe in God so I pray…I go for long walks trying to focus on things that are surrounding me and just be present in the present. If I am in so low mood and I know I might release that pressure on my dear ones I go back to previous things to do… I found that one thing I am passionate about and I am doing it always looking for a way to improve my skills, I don’t force myself, this is something I do enjoy doing. Also, only 3 times per week I am doing yoga and fitness workout, 15 minutes. Not much but worthy.
The most difficult is in the morning and evening. I am trying to change my mood in the morning and if I manage that I realized the whole day passes easier. And if I brush my hair and teeth in the morning and just put a moisturizer I feel better, than being all day in pajama. So there are small things that can make a change.
You might feel lost but you are not worthless, I am not worthless, we all are here and we all have a purpose. Look within you. If you have suicidal thoughts and you feel you can’t go through it, please seek professional help, this feeling of anxiety and depression is not worth ruining your life, your LIFE IS, YOUR LIFE MATTERS. Fight for it. Many people that wanted to be alive their life is taken from them, and you live, you are still breathing YOU ARE WORTH
Let’s try together, trust me there are many of us going through this.