I am 28th years old and right now I am going through my Saturn return. In my chart, Saturn is in Capricorn and it’s positioned on 20th degrees in the third house but close to IC. He is the ruler of my fourth house and it is retrograde.
I truly believe that these are the years when we face our fears when we have to face our life when we reflect back and we think about the future.
What is our position? Are we satisfied with our lives? Are we avoiding responsibility? This is a time when we have to realize to rely on ourselves. Facing reality can be really hard sometimes.
It is never one transit that aspects our lives they all work along.
To some people, it brought loss of family members, break up, changes of job or loss of a job. To others, it brought a stable relationship, a good job…Everything with a higher purpose.
In my case, I left my home. I was only two weeks in two years in my home country. Again at that time I also had South Node transiting my 4th. In my natal chart, I have many indicators of far away travelings.
As Saturn is known as the planet of Karma as well, I met many people with whom I had South node connections. That transiting South Node also made a conjunction to my North Node. Many hard lessons, hurt feelings. Guess those events were fated.
Well, I also met a special person again past life connection exists, with who I started a serious but complicated relationship with a lot of issues and rejections from some people, and his family.
Very hard time.
I am trying to be more positive but it is a heavy aspect for me so far, what will happen in February and March when I will have exact conjunction I do not even want to think.
I am facing my reality, I do not want to run away, I have to be independent and I am going for it.
The third house includes writing, marketing, relatives, traffic, IT. As I am starting to do affiliate marketing and a new website, hope that my efforts will pay off.
Here are some of the aspects it made so far, will continue updating this post accordingly.
Saturn sextile Moon – Moon rules my 10th House so it brought me an idea about website and business
In website http://www.astrology-x-files.com it is written about these aspects.
Saturn conjunction Uranus
This combination represents the need to balance change with stability and responsibility. Often there is a conflict between what we want to do and what we must do, but at this time you are likely to feel a compulsive need to throw off anything that you feel restricts or oppresses you even if these restrictions were for your own good. The tension in your job, home or your relationships can cause you to do rather unpredictable things now. It may be possible to balance your need for freedom and meet your obligations at the same time, but it will probably seem impossible. This is because Saturn represents the principle of agnosia (forgetting – or not knowing). Saturn is forgetting the principle of Uranus (that structure needs to change). On the other hand, if you are normally a disciplined individual, you may find this to be a time of creative inspiration when you are able to bring your ideas into practical application. This is a creative period for inventors.
Saturn conjunct your natal Neptune
This combination represents the combining of the real with illusion. Consequently, it is a time when you are likely to be confused or disillusioned about many aspects of your life. You may have a lot of self-doubts and lack self-confidence. Because you are not sure what is real in your life, especially in your relationships and in what is expected of you, you may have a tendency to be gloomy in your perspective and suffer from anxiety. If you are a secure individual, this can be a time when you are able to see past materialistic concerns. You can be capable of great sacrifices for the benefit of the greater good, or you could become a martyr for a cause.
Truly correct, I felt like I am on a crossroad, confused about my way first time in my life, tension, self-doubt, depression.
I recognized signs and decided to deal the best way I can. As Pluto is to in my third house. Imagine how hard it was to control my thoughts. However, understanding what is going on helps to get over it